Feel very depressed. I just cant stop crying. Have fallen down to the pit. Cant get up myself. Quarrel with him on the sms and phone call. I really dont know what he really understand. I am really very confused. I dont know what decision to make. I am really very sian already. All he can say is excuses........ and he can even argue. I really feel so damn disappointed. I don knwo wat to do. I was meeting wen at that time, I really feel like cryin out. but in the end i managed to broke down after i reach home. I really feel so lost and alone now. I really got no help. What should i do.
I may seems happy and always so freely. It is just that i choose to bottle everything inside. Till now i finally explode and all that came to my mind is commit suicide. I got no one to turn to. Cos everyone is selfish and no matter wat they will only think about themselves. action proves everything. I already got used to seeing human evil and ugly side. As long as i am useful they will use me. Once i m useless then they will just don give a damn.
Really hate going to work nowadays. works sucks......... people sucks, job sucks,pay sucks, everything sucks there.
I am going down........
