Thur 22 Nov, work half day. Went home to help sis pack her things. And she went back to her house. Cos our house is too dusty, bad for the baby. The baby keep on sneeze. So go home help her. The baby is so cute. Like to do stretching when sleeping. move a lot. And i saw her yawn. Was so cute. Fri 23 Nov, was my birthday. Took leave. Woke up early to do the house work. Then meet wen at 12pm. Went to driving centre to book my test date. Will be next yr Feb. After that proceed to meet boy at bedok interchange. Then took train to cityhall. Boy was so funny, Keep on make us laugh. And we even talk about hokkien wording. I argue with him. haha. Then wen "peng". Went to new york new york for our lunch. The food there was not bad. I had fish and chip. Nice..... Boy had pork chop and wen hav spagetti. Then went to marina square to see movies. Played arcade for a while. Then see the show brats. Was okok. Then after the show is already evening. Actually plan to KTV. but boy say why not go to geylang 1, Cheaper. So after considering. I decide to go there. His brother came to fetch us, Instead of going to the ktv, he told his brother to drive to his house 1st. I was like blur...... Then i was there for 4 hrs.... waiting for the car to come, then he bring us go. And was like waiting for boy and the car, but the time the car came, it is already 11++. My birthday is going to be over soon. but still got a piece of cake for my birthday, at the staircase. Quite a special 1. It will surely be a memorable birthday. But overall was ok.

Sat 24 Nov, meet wen up in the evening. Went to tampines to see movies. Watched the tattoist. The show was not bad. After that went to a void deck and chat. We chat till 4am... We didnt even realised the time....

Thanks wen and boy for celebrating my birthday. Wen thanks for the present. Really very "exp"haha. Thanks boy for the lunch. Thanks jass and kelly sis for the present. And hua for the present. Thanks for those that sms me. Thanks.

Am i so irritating. Am i so detestable. Or u are just acting in front of me. Soneone who can be used. Someone who is stupid and u are the clever 1. I really dont know which is the true you. I dont understand u at all. You are so changable. So unpredictable. I just dont understand. U can tell me bad things about this people. Then treat this people so gd, and so close. So which is the truth behind. Y so complicated. Isnt acting tired. I see you act, i am so tired.

Stayed at home today. Need to arrange my thoughts. Think through. And i had nothing that worries me. Dont have to see problems as so serious. If it will be settled then it will be, if not then it will be ok. Dont have to let everyone worried about. Everything can be simple. It is how we see things. I dont wish to let things make my life bitter. I believe things will change for the better.

Learn the lessons being taught. It will be very valuable in future. It makes us grow up and make us be more sensible. I dont understand the meaning of life. And always think that death will be a good to end everything. But if will only pains those that love and care for me. Now if i wan to live on, is not for me to decide. I dont have the decision in my hand. All i can do is to try to keep myself moving on as many days as i can. No matter how bad days can be. I will strive on.

All i wan to say is. Dad and mum i love u.

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