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Thursday, June 25, 2009

Getting more sian and sian working here. Really don't feel like coming to work everyday. So bored. Nothing much to do. And i don't get well with my colleagues. And my superiors also. Think they like her more. Watever. I don't give a damn. I just wan to faster complete my studies and get the hell out of here asap.

So tired lately. Don't know what is wrong with my body. Nothing major happen, except my spine. But the doc say it won't cause me to be so tired. And had been having problem with my food. Everytime after i eaten. After a while i will start to vomits. The vomiting is getting more and more frequents. Thats bad. Hopefully can survive till sept is over.

Really very moodless now. Just feel like going home and rest and listen to my music and do my things. Feel so tired, mood so low, so sick, so sian. Better anyone don't come and piss me off now. I don't know what i will do. The sickness is making me very frustrated and sian.

Need to pull my mood up. But nothing can do now. And i am stuck in this damn office. My mood will surely get worse. What the shit.

Hope that wen and family will be peace

i will stop here

Monday, June 22, 2009

Having monday blues today...... So sickening working today. Very tired. Last night dont know struggle till wat time then can get to sleep. Feeling bad today... Dont in gd health today. Coughing badly. Having headache.....

Meet wen on sat. went to watch the movie - past of my girlfriend. something like that de. Not bad..... After that proceed to void deck to slack..... These few days is so damn hot. No wind...... Really sweat like hell ah. Chat a lot. Then went home.

Went to see the chinese doctor. Getting more pain as he do. Aiyo...... then went to eat long john as my lunch. Cos need to eat medicine after that. Then on the way to interchange to take bus home. saw a toy. Very fun. Is a movable flower.... I saw it and find that funny and fun. I bought one for myself and one for wen. Haha..... so excited. After reach home. open it and play with it. Haha....... Feel so excited. So ask if wen wan to meet up, so i can pass her the flower and laugh together. Haha...... Hope she like it. Meet her up at 8.30pm. went to a void deck and slack. And start our conversation. Enjoyed our conversation. Both were crazy like hell..... And on the way back to her blk area. She gave me a hug. Which i had asked for quite some time. The feeling was great. That was her 1st hug to me. So happy. Felt the caring....... So sweet..... haha..... Can i have one more..... Haha

Will stop here....
Haha

Friday, June 12, 2009

Slacking around in the office. As it is my lunch time. Can't get to sleep. Don't know y.... So came in to crap a while. Haha...... Weather is bloody hot. Went to smoke just now and can feel that my leg and butt seems to be like burning..... aiyo...... Roasted pig anyone interested. Haha....... Not busy today at work. Can do my things slowly. Can't walk much also.... Trying to walk as less as possible.

Really can feel that i am getting fatter and fatter... Oh my god.... anyone any suggestions how to slim down the healthy way. But fast..... anyone know.... I need advise..... I don't eat much leh....... I wan to exercise, but my back like that.... Also don't know till when then i can exercise..... aiyo...... Read through my past entries..... like very demorale past.... i wan to change.... more happy entries.... more bo liao 1. Haha....... jia you man......

I wan kiss, hugs. Anyone.... Haha...... (toking nonsense again) haha...... I am thinking am i considered dirty minded.... after thinking...... i think i am.... Haha..... so is it counted gd or bad.... Hmm...... For a lady..... should be ok right.... nvm la. I also nv done anything bad. Haha...... I am those kind that. i can say anything but dont dare to do 1. safe la safe la..... hahahahaha

Think i will stop here

Start to Zzzzzzzzzz.

Tk care everyone.

Ni pen down

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Feeling very terrible.... my back waist there. Dont know will have to take how long to recover. Went to see chinese doctor. Told me is slip disk. Dont really know what is that. So sian. Even have difficulty in sleeping. The Mc given is of no use in my co. So no choice, have to work. Cos was supposed to walk less and rest more. But i got no choice. Have to bear with it loh.

Enrol for my sept exam. Stress is starting soon. So sian. took 4 subject. Hope can manage. Pray hard for it. Suntec IT fair is coming. Is this weekend. I wan to go..... see if can find anything cheap and gd to use stuff. Yeah......... Sure got lots of people. have to be careful of my back.....

The more i work here, the more sian i get. dont know how to say, just feel sian. No wonder my cousin left. Can understand her feelings. really so sian. A drag everyday. Even my colleagues dinah also feel this way.

Leo bought a balloon to cheer me up. Wonder wat is the meaning of the balloon ?? He nv say anything just gave me..... He went to reservist already. So boring..... start to miss him already.....

will stop here...
Ni pen down