Today work as usual. Ot till 7++. Then went home le. Simon went home at 5++. He say he not feeling well. .......... Then Went home to get changed. And went out with my friends. Go to east coast to roller blade. So long nv blade liao. Going fatter and fatter. So must really do some exercise. If not also not healthy liao. Had great fun. Then proceed to marina south to par game. Till3++. Didn't even realise the time. Then home. Had a great sweat. So long nv exercise le. Scared tomorrow will leg pain. Leg cramp.........

Really wish to go overseas.... Don't know have to wait till when then can go...... Wish to go pulau ubin. But think no one wanna go. No choice le ba.... Not much friends also. Wanna fix outing also very hard de. So dont think too much le. Don;t know if co will hire another people. If nv, think will cry le......... So hard to apply leave.

I am so upset. Y is this happening. Why do this. I am so disappointed.... Really nv expect this to happen de. I dont know how to react liao. Please dont give me stress anymore. My heart wont be able to take it. Please just leave me some peaceful life. I want peaceful life.

Still coughing. Dont know when will recover..... Faster recover...... Faster........

Will stop here

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Sat morning went to see doctor. After that i went home. Pack my room. Throw a lot of things. Then slack for a while. Then meet up wen in the night. Went for movie. saw this show next. OVerall was still okok. Then same thing.... Wen to a nearby void deck to chat. Chat tll 4 ++am.

Sun woke up at 3pm. Then slack the whole day. Really feel so tired. Still coughing. So xin ku. Then yesterday feel like vomitting. But nothing come out. SO xin ku. Then today headache. Think must be the medicine that i am taking. The side effects ba. So many problems. Really making me so shack....... SLack a lot. Dont know how. Wanna go exercise, but think forget about it. Who will go with me..... Many are slackers. Or not in the same sports. So watever..................... Bought a new sport shoes. Going for morning exercise.

Likes my bed alot........ SO gd for slping....haha.... Likes my pillow so much. Likes my blanket so much........haha..........

ok finish my nonsense..

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Today was normal working........ Talk some rubbish. Luckily was nv sent to the woodbridge...... haha.... I dont wan to go hougang chalet.......ahhhhhhhhh.........haha.......weather wa sso cold and hot. Was so warm in the morning, sweat alot. Then afternoon was raining......?????? then late afternoon was so warm again...... What is happening...... I wan watever.... give me watever........ WATEVER.....................haha.... Really hooked on to the commercial. It was so damn funny. I see liao keep on laugh and laugh..... Very funny. Was waiting for the drinks to be out. Still waiting............. Keke........... Although fever is down. But still having flu and cough. And sore throat~~~~~~~.. Aiyo must still wait for how long to recover.... I wan to go swimming ah........

Went out to dinner with matthew and shan. Was matthew treat. To thanks us for the hard work. And say that we work till face greenie.... so treat us eat. Went to sakae at parkway to eat. So full. Both shan and matthew had 7 plates. Haha....... I of course nv eat so many. They are gd eater.

Wan to go for a holiday man..... So many people go liao... but i still havent go before. My passport havent kai zhang yet. I wan to go ..... But no time and money. Aiyo..... Faint liao.........

I will stop here

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Yesterday slp very late. But nv keep track what time slp le. Just can't get to slp. Think my insomia is coming back le. Aiyo....... Seh............ Miss u so much. Been thinking of u these few days. Don't know why. Think of the jokes u say, and the care and concern u gave me. I really miss u badly. What should i do. I dont dare to call u. I dont dare to sms u. I dont know what i should do. But just think and think. Really been quite blur these few days. Do silly things. Forget this, do wrong that.... Aiyo..... Also dont know why like that...... This coming sun will be celebrating mum brithdaay. Early celebrations. Got the presents ready. Went to buy with hua. haha... My lame sister, always make me laugh. But seldom see my 2 sis le. Will miss them de. Now go home also no one to chat with me. To hala with me le. So boring. House is so quiet. I cannot share my things with them.............

Take medicine every night, is killing me man. Dont know when then can settle everything. See medicine so scared. And got to endure and endure. Just like days in NPCC. Endure............ ahhhhhhhhh....... So long nv had tough training le. But miss those days man. Haha......

Need to rest man. I need long rest badly. Sat and sun is not enough. So shack. So tired. And worse insomia. Help me ah............ I dont wan to take slping pills. Not gd for health. Will get immune de. I dont wan to eat pills till the days i die. So damn sickening man.......

Fews days ago. Dig out all those letters that i kept. Read them 1 by 1. And those things that people gave me. And 1 newspaper article. I dedicate to my ex bf during valentine time. Some small message. But worse is i forgot who i dedicate to liao.... haha...... and many many things.........

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Today weather was very sunny... so sunny de. oday the photocopy machine was spoil. Make spoil by a guy from store. haha...... So whole day cannot copy. Tom hopefully can copy le. If not very mafan. haha....... Had a bad dream lst weekend. Was so scary. Woke up late in the night. Told her wat i dream about. And she was there laughing. Haha..... Hope the dream wont come true. And i believe it wont come true de. Was Fighting with shan. Haha.... Aiyo.... I lose again. Haha..... Told her to wait for me 10 yrs. " nu zhi bao chou, shi nian bu wan" hahahahaha..... Pig rule.... hahah.... i know.. *pengz*... haha.........

Was having a spinning headache this afternoon. So terrible man. But i was not spinning la. Haha..... Only the head. Haha.... Aiyo... dont know wait for how long then it was gone. Felt better loh. Last sat was watching the spiderman 3. Overall was ok. Some parts was funny. haha..... The movie was quite long. About 2hrs++. Sit till my buttocks pain siah. rushing to the toilet..... Haha... Bet must be drinking of toooooo much water le. After that went to chat till 5++. Wanted to ask shan up to wee wee. Hahaha.... But she saw my no dont wan to pick up. So bad........

Doctor say i was so stubborn. Ask me to follow his instructions, but i didnt not really do that. if i really follow his instruction. Aiyo...... no life liao loh. But i did eat the medicine la. I guai guai eat loh. athough it is terrible. But i eat loh. He is so naggy de. More naggy than me. Oh.... so terrible de.

Think getting old liao. Want a more settled life. A more simple life. Not always play and play le. More stay at home. hahah.... lazy to go out la. So slack. Typical slacker liao........ Aiyo...... Dont know is gd or not.

Really miss u so much. Actually wanna call u, But in the end i choose not to. I dont wan to complicate things. I wan simple. Aiyo..... i am so sacred so complicated. So choose not to call loh. I dont know if i should call. And i think better dont disturb u also la.

Ok too naggy liao.... I will stop here

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Today work was so slack. Not much to do man. Was totally considered slacking. I thought it will be very busy... but no. Use lunch time to study for my final theory test. Tonight 8pm will be going to take the test with wen...... Was a bit gan cheong. Really worried will fail. Cos during the trial test i go i nv pass at all. But end up..... YES.....!!!!!!!! i passed. I pass man... Haha.... Wen pass also. I finish 1st. Was waiting for her outside. And was waiting for her expressions. Then she came out smiling and nodding her head. Yes. We both pass our final test. Was so happy. We were like siao zha bo. haha....... But there is more to come......... The hard 1. The practical. haha..... Mama birthday is coming soon. Dont know what to get for her...hmmm... Havent call hua and hoon yet. ...........

Start to take the medicine liao. Took last night. Was totally terrible man. Going crazy le. Was so pain till i was rolling on the floor. I fall from my bed to the floor. And it was like my heart was burning in fire and my lungs seems to be tearing apart. I had to struggle myself to toilet as i felt like something seems to be coming out. I think it is blood. I vomitted so dirty blood. I dont remember i struggle till when, then i use my whole strength to roll myself to my bed. And i need to calm myself down and say it will be over soon. And dont know what time i finally fall aslp. Finally can get to rest. will take again later. Very scared. Hope the effect will end soon. Pls pray for me...... I dont wan to die yet man.

Peace within me

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