Been Sick these few days. Cough, flu, sore throat and fever up and down. Eat panadol to push down the fever. I dont wan to see doctor. I hate seeing doctor. If possible i dont wan to go. Yesterday was in hospital again. Not for the transfer. But i was giddy. vomitted too much blood. Luckily nothing happen. Was so tired. Tomorrow is month end le. Will have to OT i guess. Shack..........

Last week was my 1st lesson on the road. Was very suah. The road was so packed with vehicles. I had to wait for at least 10-15mins, then can turn out. Overall was ok. Hope to get a more better instructor. Felt that this instructor i had wasnt that gd. Instructions given was messy. Make me confused.

Hoon came back to stay for 2 weeks. Her husband went to reservist. So she came back. Someone to talk le. Yeah....... Finally. If not so lonely.....

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Today was supposed to go for my driving lessons. It was raining in the morning. Meet wen up at interchange. I couldn't find my PDL... And was so frustrated. Called wen up. Told her that i am still finding. And she was like huh..... Then we called to check. That if the PDL is lost. Have to reapply a new 1. Means another $25..... Then as usual. Went for my lessons. And the instructor actually wan to bring me on the road. But i have no PDL. So no choice. He say if i lost my PDL, i have to make a police report. Ahhhhh..... So no choice. After my lessons. Wen accompany me to make a police report.

Today so suah siah...... So sian.... Don't step on my tail and i won't do anything. Make me frustrated. Is either i kill u or u kill me. So angry. Can u be more sensible, and dont do stupid things. Talk about it and i am so angry. Now is the seven mth. Many people praying. Many smoky areas.

I really dont like to talk much nowadays. Maye only to some people, i will talk more. If not i dont wish to open my mouth. Since people always say i talk rubbish and make people angry. So i keep my mouth shut loh. So can U please judt fuck off my life, dont torture me, and dont torture yrself.

Yesterday went out with wen after work. She wanna meet up for dinner. Went to tampines. Had yoshinoya for dinner. After that same thing. Went to TM smoking area for chat. Then chat till about 9pm. Then off we go. After that meet up with shan. Went for east coast for a blading sessions. Had a great sweat. A gd exercise. After that found a gd spot to rest and to relax and enjoy the breeze. Then to mac to drink. To replenish my water :)

Slack at home the whole day at home. Woke up in the afternoon. Then read my story book and listen to songs. Thats all. Thinking of what may happen. And what should be my reactions. Miss you so much. But i really cant tell u this. Realy kept everything inside. Dont wan to tell anyone le. Dont wan to bother anyone. I know it is a drag to have to hear people stories. A very irritating thing. So i better keep to myself. Better to stick to my old self.

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Yesterday went out with boy. Went to farm. To see dog. Very cute........ Happens to had a minor attack. Asked him to send me to hospital. On the way i called the hospital. Called my doctor. And was send in for my "treatment".. Felt so terrible. So pain.... I thought i wont be able to make it out of the hospital. But i made it. Felt so weak. Boy bought me to sakae for dinner. Cos we used to go there for dinner. And he know i like to eat the fried rice there. So after dinner he sent me home.. Dont know if i scared him.

Really dont know how many days i had left. Thought about it. But in the end. I remain silent. Dont know what to say...... Still considering what to do. Really confused......?????

I may really just die like that... What am i supposed to do now... What i havent done yet. The ans is : many things i havent accomplished. But i dont know how many i can do it. I am trying my best to stay strong. But the pain is so sickening. Making me go bonkers. I will try to stay relax and happy. Pls dont agitiate me. Thanks. If i offend anyone. SO sorry. Cos the pain sometime cause me to mood low. But normally if i mood low i will stay low profile.

All i wish to say is... i love everyone. And gary i still love you so much.....

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Monday and today was on MC. Mc for 2 days. Doctor say i am having sore throat. And coughing. And i need to spray my inhaler for these 2 days. After listening to my breathing. I was like shocked to get 2 days mc. So rest at home today. Was kind of feeling tired. Having my period yesterday. Stomach cramp...... Finally found my true ghost stories 3. Yes......... Full collection liao. So happy.

But feeling kind of boring also. Dont know what to do..... Watch finish all my vcd liao. No show to watch liao. So boring..........

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Yesterday and today went for my driving practical lessons. Had to woke up early in the morning. So tired. Wen also. Overall still ok. But everytime after my lessons, my legs is so tired de. Haha... Tired now, but cant get to slp. Dont know why. Anyone wanna sing a lullaby for me. Keke...... Dont know what i am doing. Been in a daze lately. Office just sucks. aving so sickening supervisors. I dont like anyone of them at all. Both seems so fake. Villians people around trying to back stab us. We dont know who they were. All are suspects. That is life. People may just back stab u. That is just so common. What the .... So tired. Cant things be simple. All things are not fair. U can have 10 ups, but u will have 100 downs.... People dont like listening to yr downs. So i will just keep my mouth shut.

I dont wan to be fat. I dont wan to b fleshy. I wan to slim down. I hate the way i am now. What should i do. Really too tired to go for exercise. After work. My energy had been drained out. So tired.....

Lie on my husband leg. Feel very comfortable. Nearly fall aslp. haha.... Must go test on other legs also..... haha.......

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