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Friday, January 30, 2009

Windy nights........ this yr ang bao is about the same as last yr.....House visiting to my grandma house. my father side de & my mother side de. Went to Leo there on the 2nd day of New yr. Slack till sat then start work. Forced to take leave for 3days. Also don know where to go.

Settle my appointment wit the doc. Really don feel like going. But no choice. Cannot injection, no medicine to cure, nothing le..... nothing..... that's it le.... what the hell..... This yr is a bad year for pig. Really have to be careful le.

Havent go wen wen house Bai nian yet. Actually plan on sat go de. Hope sat only work half day. She also havent come my house bai nian. Sat working will surely be boring. Have to see her face. Think of it my mood totally spoil. Boring life..... sian ah...........

New yr eve, went to pasir ris kbox to sing song. Played spray. but the spray is like so lousy. after a while and it is finished. Shi si put aeroplane. And i received her sms today. Saying she is sorry and ask if i am angry. Infact i am not angry. But just disapointed in her. Everything is just a lie. I hate people lying to me. I really feel not gd when she say all these things. And avoided our calls when we called her. Not responsible at all. This is going to be the last time. I am not going to trust her anymore. I had enough of her aeroplane. If she dont cherish me as a friend then no point me one sided keep on trying to maintain the friendship.

In my life, i have many failure in friendships, failure in studies, failure in relationship. To now what i have really accomplished. I dont know.......Really is nothing ba.... and i am 26 this yr and nothing is accomplished. What a sad thing to hear huh....

But it is ok. I really dont care a damm... simple life and carefree is what i wan now.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Weather have been very hot in the afternoon..... Nite time so cold.... So windy..... New Year is coming. Holiday is coming also... Yeah..... Coming friday will be closing. Rest for 5 days. The more i work there, the more sian i feel. Really sucks there. People sucks. Gossipers, back stabber. it is not the work that make me tired, it is the people there that makes me tired.

Sat do home work do until siao liao..... so many so many so many to do. wen & me, do 1 question smoke 1 time... haha... need to take a break to rest ourself. Due to so many home work to do, so nv go watch movies. So suah.... After finish 1 of my homework, the full scap fly away, i was chasing after it. Shocked wen, she thought what happen. then i finally caught hold of the paper, i lost my balance and fell down. So pei sei, just nice a car drive past. Wen say the driver was driving very slowly and looking at what is happening. So pei sei siah. Really very happening sat ah.....Wen help me to massage my blue black... So pain ah..... she is so strong, and she is so happy to do the blue black...haha... She always help me to do my blue black de. So that will faster recover.... So sweet ah.... but very pain....haha.....pain until i am sweating...haha...Scary ah.

Have been having weird dreams lately..... Lame, weird, funny. I dont understand why will like that also. Got tell wen some of the dreams that i remember. haha.... We going to buy bra on Fri... yeah..... buying red colour..... try on let wen see..haha....

Wen : you and my fate is linked together, so lets jia you together ok..... lets happy and enjoy together..... Lets create more memories together.. " Jia You Jia You Jia You"

Tk care everyone

Ni pen down

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Hanging on, Had a bad day today. Went to have my injection today. Can't take it at all. When the effect came, i was like so pain. Till i actually went unconcious. I dont know i fainted for how long. But luckily i was awake back. I was pull back from the dead. Had to take another pain kiler jab to stop the pain. Really inbearable. But after that only numb and tired. Really very scared. Infact was supposed to take the jab tom, but the hospital do the wrong arrangement. So was told yesterday to come today to take the jab. I can't slp at all yesterday.

Now the pain killer effect is lesser, and i can start to feel the pain again. I really don't know if i can take it. Still trying to take the pain. Hope that i can endure for tonight. Hanging on..... hanging on...... hanging on.......

If i perish tonight. Please tk care everyone. I just wan to say, i love u all. Thanks for the support. Everybody live strong, Stay happy. Live life to the fullest man. Don't have regrets.

Hanging on..... hanging on..... hanging on....

Monday, January 12, 2009

Had my hair dye today. Still find it quite striking. Not the colour that i want. Hope after some time washing will dull the colour. Very sian today. Very moodless. He always spoil my day. Really don't understand what he is thinking. He don't understand at all. Really very frustrated. When then he will wake up the idea and understand what is going on. Or he really not concerned at all. Very frustrated now.

Yesterday meet wen at TM. Went to have our dinner at Yoshinoya. Then movies we watched Ong Bak 2. The show is not bad. The fighting is ok. After that proceed to under blk to do our homework. So many questions to do. We do for very long, but only do finish some. Not fully finish. Too many liao. Have to wait till next time then continue le.

Chat awhile after that. Had a great chat. Told her my stress. She gave me her wen wen philosophy. Haha....Really hope that everything will turn out well.

Date for doctor has been changed from wed to thur. Hope that all will be smooth. A risk that i will be gambling on. Live or die will see thur. Wen if i win the war, i will let u know. If not then i just wan to tell u that u are my best friend. My one and only best friend. Very glad to have known u.

Really feeling very heavy. Hope tat things turn out well. Pray hard.

To my husband cum cousin - shan, tk care.
To my wife cum bestfriend - wen tk care.
To my bf - Leo - tk care.
To my family - tk care.

I will pen down now.

Everyone tk care

Friday, January 09, 2009

What a bad day at work. So pissed off. Keep on show attitide. What the hell. Think wat she is. Angry man. Sooner or later sure kick her ass. Boring day. Always nothing much to do. so boring man..... lesser and lesser things to do le.

Went to sch on wed. And finally our exam date is comfirmed. aiya....... stress is coming le. have to start to revise le. Going to the doc soon. Very gan jong man. Hope everything will be fine. Bad or gd omen.... figuring out man....... haha

If one day yr partner is gone, what will u do ? what is yr reaction... Go find another 1 or go part out and get drunk... go and hav a one night stand.... hmm..... i think for me should be go party and drink like hell ba...... haha......

If one day i am gone, what will my friends do ? hmm........... wondering.....

haha..

Will stop here

Ni pen down

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

Today work is so boring.... Nothing to do at all. So slack... Slack until i going to fall aslp. Today know that new syllabus has started. Wed and Fri will be having Account fundmental classes. As for tues will be Auditing. Seh liao...... Exams coming at March... Lalala haven't revise yet. Oh My God.....New Year also coming soon... Alot of things haven't do yet siah......haha..like so busy like that ah....

Very xin ku.. Heart very pain.... Have to take jab soon.... Spoke to the doctor. Still don't know the situation yet. Only till 14 Jan 09 after meeting up with the doctor then will see how. don't know if need to stay in the hospital for observation. Hopefully not. I really don't wan to stay there. I don't wan.. Ah ann die of virus attack, Ah Leong also die of virus. Will i join them soon also. Seems like there is no cure at all. Only can wait for death to come. Seems scary to me. But i hav no choice also. Just don't care ba.

Will stop here
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Tuesday, January 06, 2009

2009 has come. and hope this is a good start for me. Went to a " Gui Yi " ceremony on sat 3 Jan 09. A true buddhist le. But no need to eat vegetable. I am considered a meat eater ba. Cos i don't like to eat veggie at all. Been quite slacker lately.... very lazy, maybe is due to weather ba.

I find Leo weird these weeks. Don't know what he is thinking. He seems to be planning something. But i don't know what he is thinking at all. And keep on ask funny question. I ask myself if i love him, and the answer is Yes i love him. But still we are not considered so stable. Hope we can go further.

Will stop here

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