Feel very tired..... Many issues to settle. Had a serious attack yesterday. Called him and he didn't pick my call. So disappointed. He didn't call me at all. Didnt even know what he is doing at all. In the end call my friend to send me. Luckily still have my friend to help me. This morning, he is late. In the end, i have to wait for him for 10mins. Make me nearly late for work. So tired already still have to stand there and wait for him. Really dont know what he is doing. All he say is last nite he watch tv till he fall aslp. He didnt even sms me at all.
Body getting weaker. cos i skip going to doctor. Nv take any medicine. I don even know what is the situation now. Hope that i can hold on. I am hoping for the taiwan trip. Hope that everything goes well. This is my 1st trip. Very anxious, At the start i feel very excited. But now becos of many things coming, And money issues, so i hope everything will be settled. I also don know much. Just follow them. They plan and arrange everything. Will stick to wen wen.
I am very shack. I need a break. Many things going on, Dont know how to say. I also dont wish to say. Dont like to say my things out now. Since it is of no help. I will settle myself. I am old enough to settle my own problem. Lets hope that no major things coming. Then i will be more relaxed.
Is he really the one. Whenever i start to feel the sweetness, he will surely destroy it. How many times do i have to tell myself to forget about it and still think that he is reliable and good. Really hope that he wont make me regret my decision. That all i can say is that is the final time. No more chances. I cant take any blows.
