Stayed at home today. Need to arrange my thoughts. Think through. And i had nothing that worries me. Dont have to see problems as so serious. If it will be settled then it will be, if not then it will be ok. Dont have to let everyone worried about. Everything can be simple. It is how we see things. I dont wish to let things make my life bitter. I believe things will change for the better.
Learn the lessons being taught. It will be very valuable in future. It makes us grow up and make us be more sensible. I dont understand the meaning of life. And always think that death will be a good to end everything. But if will only pains those that love and care for me. Now if i wan to live on, is not for me to decide. I dont have the decision in my hand. All i can do is to try to keep myself moving on as many days as i can. No matter how bad days can be. I will strive on.
All i wan to say is. Dad and mum i love u.
Ni pen down
