Yesterday went out with boy. Went to farm. To see dog. Very cute........ Happens to had a minor attack. Asked him to send me to hospital. On the way i called the hospital. Called my doctor. And was send in for my "treatment".. Felt so terrible. So pain.... I thought i wont be able to make it out of the hospital. But i made it. Felt so weak. Boy bought me to sakae for dinner. Cos we used to go there for dinner. And he know i like to eat the fried rice there. So after dinner he sent me home.. Dont know if i scared him.

Really dont know how many days i had left. Thought about it. But in the end. I remain silent. Dont know what to say...... Still considering what to do. Really confused......?????

I may really just die like that... What am i supposed to do now... What i havent done yet. The ans is : many things i havent accomplished. But i dont know how many i can do it. I am trying my best to stay strong. But the pain is so sickening. Making me go bonkers. I will try to stay relax and happy. Pls dont agitiate me. Thanks. If i offend anyone. SO sorry. Cos the pain sometime cause me to mood low. But normally if i mood low i will stay low profile.

All i wish to say is... i love everyone. And gary i still love you so much.....

I will stop here

Ni pen down