Today was so demorale. Cried at office. Was thinking of commit suicide. Had decide, till i saw 1 message. Which make me reconsider. I took bus to 1 under blk. And i ponder what to do. What should i do. I reach home. With nothing happened. I didnt do it. This message is what i wanted to hear. But till now i am still thinking. I havent really reached an answer. Really very tired. Cry and cry. I really feel so demorale. Never in my life so demorale before. Vomit blood. But i dont care. I dont wan to see doctor. I hate going.
I really dont know what i wan. having headache. And my heart is so pain. No one can help me. No one can. i am so tired. I know that i have to be strong. but if many things came crashing, and u called someone trying to tell. but in the end. no one wanna listen. What the hell is this. I had enough.
