I really don't knwo where to start from.... I just feel terrible. Many things is happening. Don't wan to say much.... Feeling very upset. Feel very down. Had been crying. And i told no one. Dont wish to say it. I lost my way le. I am very demorale. Think i am sinking to the bottom soon. Really very tired. Dont know what to do. I have no say. I have no control. I dont know what to do. Really wish to stop le. Wish to commit suicide. Really wish to. Going crazy soon. Dont know what i am doing everyday. I am totally very sian. I have been crying and crying.
No one knows, and no one wanna know. Say u will listen, but i dont feel this way. I think u wan me to listen. It is always like that. Say is easy, doing is hard. I dont wan to say anything about myself to anyone. I am forced to go back to my old self. I think this is better this way. At least i dont feel i am a idiot, saying and on one listen. And in the heart find me a nuisance. I am so stupid. So totally stupid. Nv clever before. And dumb to the ass.
What the fuck am i doing now, and still living. I should just end this, so that this world will be more better. At least i wont be so nuisance and idiot to.........
fuck up idiot life.
