Yesterday slp very late. But nv keep track what time slp le. Just can't get to slp. Think my insomia is coming back le. Aiyo....... Seh............ Miss u so much. Been thinking of u these few days. Don't know why. Think of the jokes u say, and the care and concern u gave me. I really miss u badly. What should i do. I dont dare to call u. I dont dare to sms u. I dont know what i should do. But just think and think. Really been quite blur these few days. Do silly things. Forget this, do wrong that.... Aiyo..... Also dont know why like that...... This coming sun will be celebrating mum brithdaay. Early celebrations. Got the presents ready. Went to buy with hua. haha... My lame sister, always make me laugh. But seldom see my 2 sis le. Will miss them de. Now go home also no one to chat with me. To hala with me le. So boring. House is so quiet. I cannot share my things with them.............

Take medicine every night, is killing me man. Dont know when then can settle everything. See medicine so scared. And got to endure and endure. Just like days in NPCC. Endure............ ahhhhhhhhh....... So long nv had tough training le. But miss those days man. Haha......

Need to rest man. I need long rest badly. Sat and sun is not enough. So shack. So tired. And worse insomia. Help me ah............ I dont wan to take slping pills. Not gd for health. Will get immune de. I dont wan to eat pills till the days i die. So damn sickening man.......

Fews days ago. Dig out all those letters that i kept. Read them 1 by 1. And those things that people gave me. And 1 newspaper article. I dedicate to my ex bf during valentine time. Some small message. But worse is i forgot who i dedicate to liao.... haha...... and many many things.........

Will stop here

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