Feeling very low. Don't know what is happening. I am going to burst soon. My head is load with too many things to think. Decision i have to make. Be it big or small. I dont kn ow what to do. Dont know who tell. As i hav to settle myself. Really very stress. What should i do. Going crazy..... Feeling very frustrated, feeling very vexed. Feel that i am alone living in this fucking world. Iam totally lost. with no directions for me to choose. Really wish to end it all. But that will be letting my parents and sisters down. I really dont know what i can do.
I really dont wish to see doctor, but i dont have a choice. I hate going. i hate to be living. I hate that all the choices is so hard to decide. I hate that i have to be suffering this illness. I hate that i am so weak. I hate myself to hell.
what the hell am i doing.... i dont know.... i have no ans myself.
