Yesterday fri, working was so busy. Don't hav much time to rest. Know that mon will be very busy also. So sun must rest more. If not mon will cry ah........ Fri went to collect the pic. wash pic to put in my wallet de. Very nice. My whole family pic. Today woke up very early. Just can't get to slp as downstair was so noisy. Do my house work. Throw away the things that i don't want. Trying to make my room more spacious. Till now...... Finally get to sit down and rest. Had a very gd bath. SO comfortable....... using computer......

Been thinking alot lately. Been feeling very tired mentally. But after sweating out today, feel better, and listening to smoothing music, really relax me. Just feel better, more stressless.....
although the problem is not solved. But i believe it will 1 day. I pray for a miracle. A very big miracle. I need lots of time. And if i make anyone frustrated or angry pls accept my apology and pls tolerate with me. i am trying to overcome this big obstacle. Hope that u all will bear with me and grow with me together.

Decided to take driving lessons. Money will be tight again. Have to plan my money wisely. Think will hav to spend less. Having a weird dreams last nite. hope that it won't come true. If not it will be scary. i am trying to figure out if u are sincere with me. I am not gd at judging people, that is why i always get cheated, get betrayed. i don't know if i can trust u. So i dont say much and i dint say my things or feelings out to u. But i think as time goes by, maybe i will start to trust u more. In fact i am very insecure with people, i tend to keep my things inside me. It feel more secure and won't hear people spreading my things out. Or watsoever........

I don't know if this is right, but i am trying to think of wat i should do now. And wat my future lies.... if i hav a future.

i will stop here

Ni pen down