Sat night went out with wen. went to See movie - The Guardian. Not a bad show. The main character is very very handsome.... Oh my god. See till me drooling le. Haha...... Then same. After that went to near by void deck to chat. caled my ex colleague and she came out for a while to chat. Then wen and i continue to chat. Then chat till 2++. Then went home. can't get to sleep. Ahhhhhh. Till dont' know what time then slp. Woke up at 12++. Then do nothing till now. Slack the whole day at home. Listening to music.........
I really have craving for E******. I know i can't but the feeling is getting stronger and stronger. I really don't know how long i can withstand...... Doctor nag and nag me. Say that i drink too much le. Keep on nag. But really wanna drink and enjoy life while i can. But my Alcohol level really sucks to the max. I really can't take a lot. I will feel heart pain. It just sucks to the max. I also don't know what to do. Just bought vodka, and my house still got tequilla. Think will drink at home. drink till i die ah. At least i get to enjoy the alcohol. Better than nothing to enjoy. Life will be just so boring. Then i rather ask the doctor to kill me.
Something weighing on my mind, really added stress to my life. No solution, but i think i also can do nothing...... I believe everything will come to an end soon. All will be settled. All will be ok de.
I will stop here
Ni pen down
