Till now still coughing man. Today so forgetful. i forget to bring my sweater. so damn cold here siah. yesterday bought the sweater home. This friday got kick boxing classes le. shan and i sign up for the courses....... total of 10 lessons. after work. haha..... Don't know will be fun a not. Heart so pain just now. Vomit blood man

Yesterday was so demorale. don't wan to say already. all is over le. I really see through everything le. Still considering whether to continue the relationship. Very confused. But i have a very negative thinking. i feel that we should not continue. We don't really suit each other. And the love is not so strong as the other guy.... I still miss him. and he still stand a very important place in my heart. But too bad, he already got a very close gf liao.

I think i also don't have much time left. so Wanna finish my unfinished business as soon as possible. Still need to save up for the funeral thing. Don't wan to burden my family members. What is friend??? nowadays friend is reliable??? Are they really sincere in being friend with me or just using me. I really don't know.... Sometime they give me a feeling that they are using me. I don't wish to think too much liao. If they wan to do that, i can only say that they will get their retribution back. I cherish very one around me. But now, i only got a few who i really cherish alot. which include my family members.

I totally hate doctors. they really can do nothing at all and yet they charge so high. So sickening man. Don't wish to go and see them. Feel like kicking them.

Please don't treat me like a fool

i will stop here

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